Normally, I update weeklies. Sundays especially. But I can't do much of that this past week. Hell broke loose. Everything fell apart, and so did my life.
Stress, anxiety, and illness. A breakup between the two most important people impossible together. A vast hurl of disaster and we keep fighting.
Breaking point has shortly arrived. I'm only waiting for the deaths' door to open for me. I'm ready.
Shame, I finally found a game to distract myself with, enjoy, and put all kinds of ridiculous challenges through myself to make myself feel proud and achieved since nobody else will. But even that is taken from me. I'm online but listless, and out of mind, to do my own things.
I prefer not to be questioned, I prefer not to be spoken to or made fun of.
I'm fighting my illness, but I want to give up. If only I hadn't had the one person to keep fighting. But I feel my strength lost, and so are my challenges.
I was supposed to take full advantage of “road to 60” before it ends. While I managed somewhat, I lost track due to disaster striking down my life in a harsh clasp and crushing roar. I wish I was overreacting when I said I survived this thrice, but not sure how much more is able to keep coming.
That is why, I lost even sight in the game, my goals, my achievements.
I only ended Heavensward only a day ago, and have yet to start Dragonsong. Whilst online, I am mostly away, dealing with the horrendous reality I wish I could avoid forever. The options weight heavy with me. But easy death is no good death, I want to fight, but I am slowly losing the battle to keep strength, both mentally, and physically.
Now then. I'm stuck. I found that keeping DoL highest among 1-2 War/Mage classes, should make me benefit the crafting abilities in future, yet my crafters been slacking, and I am at loss. I had no strength to study further into it, and it all is beginning to wear me down as well. If there are any quick tips on collectibles crafting (I have them unlocked) I'd appreciate. Perhaps ideas how to go by the system. I had yet to see people challenge me reasonably, but as for now, I cannot stress another test.
If I do stop coming online, it was a pleasure to meet you bastards. Truly.
Now excuse me while I go to the Seasonal event...