I take my hands of my keyboard as I let myself and Shibil take in the view. We are at Limsa Lominsa, down by the docks just looking at the scenery. The sky is crystal clear and the ocean sparkles and dances out into the horizon. It's damn beautiful.
I find myself and Shibil spending more time walking around these sort of areas, taking our time to stroll round the streets and browse through the markets and taverns. I've been rushing to complete ARR before the end of this month and haven't really taken the time to appreciate where me and Shibil have been traveling. However lately I've been feeling quite depressed and have been struggling to find the motivation to do dungeons and quests, so Shibil basically decided for me to take things at a more slower pace.
You see sadly a couple of days ago my Nan passed away. It was sudden and very unexpected. I was in shock and needed to escape. I am not really good at dealing with and expressing any negative type of emotion irl. I hate talking about my problems because you just need to look at the news to realize that the whole world has a lot of shit to deal with too. But Shibil is the kind of mate where he will just listen and not ask questions. That's what I needed so I found myself standing at Limsa Lominsa docks with Shibil, looking at the beautiful view. I talked, he sat ( until someone ran over and danced with him for a little while) and listened, then we got drunk together. It made me feel better. Just to have someone to speak to who wouldn't constantly try to comfort you and just let you say what you feel in total privacy. It's weird how out of all the people who wanted to help me, my character Shibil was the only one who could actually help.
For now me and Shibil are continuing our break from the chaos of FFIV and just enjoying revisiting areas we rushed through and taking in the scenery, food and drink. We are thinking of taking up fishing as a hobby. I personally hate fishing but maybe with Shibil it could be more fun. I don't think our little break will last much longer, I mean the world needs saving sooner or later, but for now Shibil and I are long overdue a real exploration around Ul'dah.
Take your time. Take breaks, go outside, workout.. definitely workout, it really does help.
When in-game, take screenshots of pretty locations, chat up people along the way.
Take another couple days break.
Come back, and do your best to relax. It's very easy to grind yourself into oblivion (speaking from experience).
And this goes without saying, if the dark clouds get darker, please reach out to family/friends/help lines/ professional help.
Thanks Lolo, I really appreciate the advice, going to do all them things (especially the screenshots!) and start working out more to help clear my mind. I am overall okay just a bit sad and needed to vent out more than anything but thank you for caring, it really means a lot :)